arriving with the full moon ~ July 10, 11 2014
while camping near the Kagyu Mila Guru Stupa, north of Questa, NM
1. What Pause
We have our things
Even if we have very little
or essentially nothing
Not threadbare are any of us
And some semblance of things
is brought together, even if
just to drink this or eat that
We can sit on the ground
The body will sleep when it comes time
the preoccupation of belongings
is such a high order in our lives
that it is nearly invisible
I pause to think, as if thinking is
the way, how to live
on the land with no amenities
It seems preposterous
Just sit on the ground?
Rest under a tree?
Wait until batteries run out
and then be silent?
As if Silence was not there
all along
Everything we eat, drink, sleep
is there in the Silence
Everything we are
is that Silence
2. Doorway: Empty As
We love an entry into.
Leave an opening
And something will move thru
Even if just pretend.
So when we really go thru
What then?
Is there no going back?
We’ve moved between
And are never the same.
Something has passed
From here to there
And back again is only onward.
We pine for what was
Looking thru What Is
Trying to see something
Other than
What simply is, Just This.
And pining, things just look the same
But never are
Or are so inextricably
The same it would take
The widest open eyes
To see This
And not see something else.
Perhaps it is the putting aside
Of what the eyes see
And letting things be
As empty as they are
Each thing a doorway
To itself
Nothing more, nothing less.
In that entry
We move as all direction
Within and without
Leaving nothing aside
Going nowhere but everywhere
Without departure.
And the openings
Await nonetheless
Waiting as the perceivable
In the perceiving
As they are
As they are.
3. Do and Not Do
When there is nothing to do
Something seems to be found to do
It’s a circus we didn’t even
realize we had tickets for
and have been going to
all so regularly
It looks like life
And yet life isn’t doing
Life just happens
All on its own
No tickets necessary!
There is no grand entry, no backstage
Just ask the wind
the thunder
the rain
None of these need permission
And cannot be kept
Under lock and key
There is no one to pay
Even if that makes us
Feel more real somehow
We have so many wallets
all around and everywhere
Most of them hidden away
(what are we protecting, really?)
But there they are
What good would it be
if we didn’t find ways to fill them?
Is it a question of good?
Or is it a question of a day
yet upon us when all
bartering ceases
And something yet known,
however already conceived,
bursts forth taking us
as we are
as our most direct
Unfettered, alive beyond word
Nothing need be done
The question of do and not do
Too will cease